Judgement

 

I've been thinking about judgement lately. I've felt judged for a lot of things- my music choices, the food I eat, how I say things etc. I started to become afraid of expressing myself, of really being who I am. I get afraid that people will make fun of me. I think this feeling has been with me a long time because I was picked on when I was at middle school and I just didn't feel safe anymore. I became depressed and then I also had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and anxiety. I think the anxiety I felt about school spread into other areas of my life.

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for:

Simple moisturiser
Lammas
Last full month of summer
Hot, sunny days
Re-playing old PS2 games!
Coke (as in Coca-Cola! lol)
Chocolate raisins
Sunsets

Manifesting and Resistance

A couple of months ago I did a post dealing with manifesting fears, the things that come up when you're working on manifesting something. I'm still having some issues so I've been thinking about this subject more and I decided it would be good to do a follow up post about resistance. :) You can check out the original post here: https://fallingpetalsuk.blogspot.com/2015/05/dealing-with-manifesting-fears.html

 I did an internet search using the same sentence as the title of the post above and the top result was an article by Steve Pavlina about manifesting intentions without resistance: http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2006/11/manifesting-intentions-without-resistance/

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

The roses on the bush in my garden
Hotter weather
Summer!
The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins- I've just finished re-reading it.
Longer, lighter days
Listening to new music
Simple moisturiser 
Litha coming up

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

Beltane
Warmer weather again
The hawthorn trees blossoming- the ones near me have dark pink blossom
McDonald's choc chip iced frappe
Facets of Joy Worry-Shift and I Believe in Magic e-courses
Being able to use my old computer monitor since my usual one has broken. I hope to get a new one soon.
Feeling better than I have been
Eurovision

Dealing with Manifesting Fears

So when you get into the Law of Attraction (LOA)/manifesting, you do it because there is something you want to manifest and you want to improve your life. I think that the big thing some people struggle with (including me) is believing that things are really possible. But what about when you start to manifest and it brings up fears? Maybe you find that you're afraid of getting what you want.

I've found that I have seen changes in my world but I've also become afraid once I've seen them because, while I really want to manifest things, I'm also scared of the changes they will bring. I think quite a few people have similar experiences. My fears are around relationships currently. Someone else's might be work/career, family, travel, moving house etc. You have thoughts like,  "Can I really handle this?", "What does it mean if it REALLY comes true?",  "How will my life change once it's here?" or "But what if I just can't do it??". I believe that this is part of the reason why we tend to have trouble manifesting "bigger" things. Getting a new games console didn't massively change my life (I manifested a PS3) but a new relationship will! Same goes for a new job, having a baby or travelling the world. I think a lot of us struggle with this thinking, so that's what I'm going to focus on today.

I'm not an expert on this at all because I'm working through it myself, so I'm going to share some links with some tips and advice that I've found helpful.:)

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

Spring
The trees starting to blossom
Purple nail varnish
Easter
Easter eggs!
Winning free McDonald's food and drink items in the Monopoly giveaway
Warmer weather
Beautiful sunsets