The Love Project- Romantic Love

Note: In this post I reference the Law of Attraction aka LOA which you can read more about here:  https://fallingpetalsuk.blogspot.co.uk/2013/08/law-of-attraction.html

This year I felt inspired to carry on with the Love Project that I started 2 years ago. I had kind of abandoned it until I did a post on self love and romantic love in March, which you can check out here: https://fallingpetalsuk.blogspot.co.uk/2015/03/the-love-project-self-loveromantic-love.html

I can't believe it's been 2 years since the first post! I started the project because I wanted to have more love in my life, especially a loving, long term relationship with the man of my dreams. I haven't manifested the relationship yet but I have experienced love through friendship. Last year I found a supportive spiritual community online and it's enhanced my life. I think next time I'll do a post on friendship but for now I'm going to do another one on romantic love. A lot of links coming up! :)

Like I've mentioned before I think a big part of connecting with others and opening up to them involves vulnerability. I struggle with that but I'm trying to move past it. I'm also afraid of judgement, something that I expect a lot of other people are afraid of too. Here are a couple of posts on vulnerability:

http://markmanson.net/vulnerability

This one is for men but helpful for women too:  http://markmanson.net/power-in-vulnerability

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

Autumn
The trees changing colour
My BlackBerry
Getting a new computer and being back online!
Tomb Raider: Angel of Darkness- I'm re-playing it.
Hallowe'n chocolates!
Yankee Hallowe'en candles!
Hallowe'en/Samhain coming up

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

Deliberate Receiving book by Melody Fletcher- I got this last month and it's a great resource to refer to.
The start of autumn
Madron/Autumn Equinox coming up this month
Beautiful golden sunny weather
Titanic: The Long Night and the sequel Remembering The Titanic by Diane Hoh- I've been re-reading them.
Nando's- I went to the new one in Hove yesterday
Coca Cola Life
Watching Are You Afraid of the Dark? DVDs!

Judgement

 

I've been thinking about judgement lately. I've felt judged for a lot of things- my music choices, the food I eat, how I say things etc. I started to become afraid of expressing myself, of really being who I am. I get afraid that people will make fun of me. I think this feeling has been with me a long time because I was picked on when I was at middle school and I just didn't feel safe anymore. I became depressed and then I also had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and anxiety. I think the anxiety I felt about school spread into other areas of my life.

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for:

Simple moisturiser
Lammas
Last full month of summer
Hot, sunny days
Re-playing old PS2 games!
Coke (as in Coca-Cola! lol)
Chocolate raisins
Sunsets

Manifesting and Resistance

A couple of months ago I did a post dealing with manifesting fears, the things that come up when you're working on manifesting something. I'm still having some issues so I've been thinking about this subject more and I decided it would be good to do a follow up post about resistance. :) You can check out the original post here: https://fallingpetalsuk.blogspot.com/2015/05/dealing-with-manifesting-fears.html

 I did an internet search using the same sentence as the title of the post above and the top result was an article by Steve Pavlina about manifesting intentions without resistance: http://www.stevepavlina.com/blog/2006/11/manifesting-intentions-without-resistance/

Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

The roses on the bush in my garden
Hotter weather
Summer!
The Woman in White by Wilkie Collins- I've just finished re-reading it.
Longer, lighter days
Listening to new music
Simple moisturiser 
Litha coming up