Gratitude List

Things I'm grateful for this month:

Deliberate Receiving book by Melody Fletcher- I got this last month and it's a great resource to refer to.
The start of autumn
Madron/Autumn Equinox coming up this month
Beautiful golden sunny weather
Titanic: The Long Night and the sequel Remembering The Titanic by Diane Hoh- I've been re-reading them.
Nando's- I went to the new one in Hove yesterday
Coca Cola Life
Watching Are You Afraid of the Dark? DVDs!

Judgement

 

I've been thinking about judgement lately. I've felt judged for a lot of things- my music choices, the food I eat, how I say things etc. I started to become afraid of expressing myself, of really being who I am. I get afraid that people will make fun of me. I think this feeling has been with me a long time because I was picked on when I was at middle school and I just didn't feel safe anymore. I became depressed and then I also had Obsessive Compulsive Disorder (OCD) and anxiety. I think the anxiety I felt about school spread into other areas of my life.